Rudeness

To Josh.I didn't read the other topic,so forgive me in my error.There was no need to talk to me like that,none at all.I've always treated you kindly.And I remember you dragging your RL problems onto nexus and all I ever did or anyone else did was support you.
thanks for showing me the same courtesy and blowing a fuse and being rude to me and threatening me with mod status removal or being banned. Guess what.I don't want to be a moderator here any more,so stick it where the sun doesn't shine! And for banning me,you go right ahead,I won't lose any sleep over it.
You could have said something to me politely put you choose to yell(caps) and berate me.So be it.I remember you being rude to someone else here and politely told you about it.I guess I'm not worth the same kind of treatment.

Its easy to belittle me and treat me bad,but your not even in the same league as others.
Please no one here PM me nor ask me to come back and Josh keep you apology to yourself,I have no need of it.To everyone else farewell and I hope no one here ever gets mistreated or lives in fear or goes thru a nervous breakdown like I did.
Aaron you have a nice site but I'm an adult and refuse to be talked to or treated like dirt or a child by anyone.If I'd seen the other topic I'd have PM'd you to ask to set it straight.forgive me for being human and making a mistake.

I'll stay with mature sites where I'm treated with respect and civil comments.Goodbye.
                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Me

I was not banned from nexus,I was suspended until the 21st of November.I sent Darkone and e-mail and my suspension was lifted.I am what I am and while I kept it a secret,I felt no need to tell anyone. Only one person chose to hound and persecute and spread lies about me,no one else.In RL I am accepted and loved for me and now I have gotten nothing but positive support for "my" choice to live as a woman.
I have now removed the hold one person had over me and please don't attack him on nexus,it's what he wants.I choose to reveal my sexuality as a way to show people what he is,not what I am and so that people would know that the veneer he shows on forums is a cover-up for his true being.I know this man,he and I talked for a long time and he knew what I was and it mattered not to him.Due to many circumstances which I shall not go into,he chose to belittle and spread lies about me.I lived in fear of the truth for almost two years,but now,he holds no more power over me and I am free and happy.Whether you accept me or not is not my concern.That you see this man for what he is in truth is my concern.If you think this has ended it has not.He will look for other ways to make me look bad because he hates me,no other word will describe it.
I hold no animosity towards him and wish to go my own way and live in peace,but as God is my witness,you watch and see what he does and then know I speak the truth.I am a trans-gender man,now thru surgery a woman,because inside I always felt that's what I was.Did I lie,make mistakes and deceive some people..yes I did,but only because I lived in fear,nothing else.My days of living in fear are over.accept me for me or not,I really don't care,I'm free and that's all that matters to me.
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Faces

Faces that cross
My mind,
Faces that pass
The day and
The time.

Faces of lovers
That came and
Went,

Faces of those
Alive,
And faces of
Those heaven sent.

All the faces
In a large
Crowd,
All the angry
Faces screaming out
Loud.

Faces of evil
Of cruelty so
Unjust,
Faces of the
Sexually yearning, crying
Out in their
Lust

Faces that begin
My day,
Faces that make
It end the
Same way.

Faces that I’ve
Come to love,
Sent to me
As if a
Gift from high
Above.

Faces of friends,
That fill me
With glee
Faces that I
Show too special
People, so that
They can see
The real me.

Faces here and
Faces there,
Faces of love
For those that
Care.

What are those
Faces?
Those that seek
Me out to
Find.
That all the
Faces are but
Chapters, etched into
My mind.
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Oblivion Character

                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                              

Oblivion Character